I woke up this morning feeling like there was something missing in my life. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out what it was. I have a wonderful boyfriend we spend what time we can with each other, I finally got my babygirl home that was stolen from me after a year and a half, and I am generally happy with my life being independent. So what is missing, what more could I possibly need?
Then it hit me, family, home, security, another head to help me put together things instead of doing things on my own. God help me, I never thought I would ever say this, but I miss being married. Where the heck did that come from? I am happy with what I have with my sweetheart, yeah I joked about if kept up the good work he would change my mind about marriage. That was just a joke, I might miss it but what is the reason behind it? What is the logical reason why I miss being that way when living together with someone can be just the same.
I just think what it is, is the holidays are coming up again. Year two of the holiday season probably sitting with another turkey tv dinner and watching tv. Hearing other people say they are going to their families for dinner. I used to wonder why so many people ended up losing their minds on the holidays, now I know. Last year was absolutely painful, after all it was my first year by myself totally. This year is different from last year, since I have my sweetheart. I actually have a lot more to be thankful about, and the steps that I have taken to get here have made me strong.
I did a lot of thinking on this, I know that I am not missing anything I am just feeling sorry for myself. That is something that I simply can not do. I am in love, I have everything I need, and I am strong. So bring on the holidays, I have a lot to be thankful for.